May 2013
It’s not fair that I literally try so fucking hard but I never get any fucking happier.
I’m just sad, all the time, but not like,sad with reason, like an empty broken sad and I just want it to go away.
I don’t know how to make it go away.
I can’t do it anymore.
Sometimes I find myself intensely hating people who are close to me and I know I don’t really hate. It’s usually when they’re not around and I think of something I dislike about them and then I end up getting really fucking angry and hating them. Then next time I see them I realise I didn’t really hate them at all and I was just being fucking stupid.
inb4 no one gets it
I don't know what the fuck this is but apparently...
I’ve been tagged by punkgoes-poop
Rule 1: Always post the rules!!!! Rule 2: Answer the questions the person who tagged you and write 11 new ones Rule 3: Tag 11 new people and link them to the post Rule 4: Let them know you’ve tagged them
1) Would you rather have lots of distant friends or one really close friend? Um, I have both and and I like it that way, I guess it’s nice. 2) What are...
April 2013
If yesterday I took 20 sleeping pills and that didn’t work, it would make sense to try again today because that’s the only thing I can think of. I just want it to stop.
I finally feel happy. I finally feel like everything is going to be okay. I finally feel complete.
I finally feel ready to die.
I feel I can be at rest completely with myself.
It’s a wonderful feeling. I hope I make it. I’m going to be okay.
Oh, my dear, I missed you.
Why did I ever leave you?
Promise me we’ll never be apart again?
I know people tend to see things entirely the way they would like to, but I guess it’s usually not like that at all. I’m kinda used to it because often people take things I do/say the wrong way, which frustrates me because I genuinely don’t feel like I’ve done anything wrong, but then I guess I take people the wrong way a lot too and I get really pissed off when often...
put some numbers in my ask
1: let's have sex
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I really just fucking detest everyone that’s not Rachel right now.
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I think what’s worse than feeling like no one cares, is knowing deep down that some actually do care, but still feeling like you have no one anyway.
i’m really not okay
i’m really really not
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I think if I didn’t have such awful trust issues I’d be a much happier person. But then I don’t think I’d want to be happy and naive just because something bad will probably happen because all people will leave you for themselves in the end, people only care about themselves really. So I don’t know anymore. I wish people weren’t so shit.
Maybe it’s just...
The hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.
March 2013
Hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate.
I’m so utterly full of hatred. I don’t want to see anyone or speak to anyone I hate fucking everything and everyone
Awful habit of missing people that shouldn’t even cross my mind lol.
